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New! [02 Jan 2009|02:41pm]

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I'm new, and know that I'm ridiculously fat, but I've worked somewhat hard to lose this weight off me. New year, so I'm going to bust my ass to lost this. No more fat.

I will not be a fat girl anymore and lose anymore fucking relationships.

Here's the survey thing, I guess, you want people to fill out.

Sorry, in advance, for sounding apathetic.


Name: Stacey
Age: 30
Height: 5'9"
What City/Town do you live in: Sudbury, Ontario
Current Weight(CW): 320
BMI: I haven't the foggiest.
High Weight(HW): 385
Low Weight(LW): When I was about 12, I weighed about 178. :(
Short Term Goal(STG): 250
Long Term Goal(LTG): 130
ED That You Have: Mia, EDNOS
Favorite Low-Cal Snack: Carrots, celery, apples
Thinspiration Quote or Pic: "Don't let today's moment destroy tomorrow's dream."
Favorite Pro-Ana Communities: 24_7_posting


I look forward to meeting more people from Ontario here. :)

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[07 Feb 2008|05:33pm]

http://www.myspace.com/thundercampbaby <3
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[31 Jan 2007|11:15pm]
Name: rebecca
Age: 17
Height: 5'5
What City/Town do you live in: cornwall
Current Weight(CW): 126
BMI: 21
High Weight(HW): 140
Low Weight(LW): 115
Short Term Goal(STG): 115
Long Term Goal(LTG): 100.. but ill probably want more once i get there
ED That You Have: Ana, Mia, EDNOS, COE or Not Diagnosed: ednos
Favorite Low-Cal Snack: celery sticks
Thinspiration Quote or Pic: hunger hurts but starving works
Favorite Pro-Ana Communities: annasplace.us
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[23 Dec 2006|02:06am]
On the twelfth day of Christmas, xx_femme_xx sent to me...
Twelve psychosis reading
Eleven razorblades writing
Ten ednos a-bleeding
Nine cigarettes biting
Eight sharpies a-kissing
Seven dreads a-smoking
Six mushrooms a-hurting
Five eati-i-i-ing disorders
Four shaved heads
Three hip bones
Two sharp objects
...and a lust in an angelina jolie.
Get your own Twelve Days:
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[23 Dec 2006|01:07am]

I have absolutely no clue how many people still visit this community, but nevertheless, there is still one. I haven't posted since February 29, 2006, and was in a relationship with someone much skinnier than I. Things have changed in a huge way since then. I mentioned in that post I was always hovering around 111-114 lbs, have since broken that and was around 105lbs for the longest. I got healthy, was exercising tons. Then I quit smoking. Turns out my childhood asthma was still there and not smoking anymore coupled with a virus I caught in Chicago gave me an asthma attack + lung infection and I have been on bed rest since last Friday. It'll be 5 weeks of no smoking this Sunday. I'm crossing my fingers I get better soon so I can catch up with my life. There's not much of it, and it's rather boring and lonely, but it's all I got :)

I don't know how many of you enjoy looking at pictures of people with lovely bodies, but here's a couple for those who do. I found them on the community _realthin, so I may be posting some I wasn't supposed to repost. Can't remember. I'll take'em down if that happens. Anyways, if you do really enjoy pictures, check out that community as it is active as hell.

random pretty picturesCollapse )
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[25 Aug 2006|01:30am]

Alright well, I feel I should update so...hear goes

uhm...I'v lost another 15 pounds which means I'v reached my first short-term goal *grins*
schools starting again soon :/ but at least this year I wont be such a fat ass.
even tho I'm 25 pounds lighter, I know I could have done better and I know I'm still a cow.
I want to lose another 10 pounds at least befor school starts but I have no idea how I'm gunna do it since I only have 11 days of freedom left. I think I'm going to fast for as long as I possibly can because I have lots of partys and raves and shit to go to so really don't have time to exercise properly.

but anyways enough about me

stay strong and enjoy the rest of your summer!

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[29 May 2006|12:42pm]

"hey stomach
I'd appreciate it if you would stop
...ya know
consuming food
k thx"

some girl posted this in another community.
I thought it pretty much explained how im feeling about myself today.
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[27 May 2006|10:05pm]

Well hello everyone,
Just thought that i should update.

Im taking Hydroxycut. it seems to be working iv lost 5 pounds in 3 days and that makes me happy.
Im only 10 pounds lighter then the last time i posted but iv also grown half an inch and my breasts grew a cup size (there so big now lol).

what iv eaten today:
breakfast - 2 pieces of toast
lunch - 1/2 cup chicken broth
dinner - 1 banana and 1 piece of cheese

I shouldent have eaten that fucking banana. grr
but anyways, my mother is about to go out therefor im going to go and smoke a joint *joy*.

stay strong everyone.
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[15 Mar 2006|06:19pm]

hey all

i don't post on this journal anymore, and in general i've been trying to avoid ED communities, since i'm "recovering", but i was reading all the past entries and i am hoping all my fellow eating disordered friends are doing alright.

i've been half-assed following my meal plan, but i have also been doing more physical work, carring wood, and just general household stuff. Been attending outpatient treatment for my ED on a weekly basis since i got out of the hospital in september. been up and down. i'm down this week. apparantly i lost 1.1kilos in 2 weeks (so i guess that's 2.3lbs. *shrug*) which brings me to about 114lbs. i'm not avidly trying to restrict, or purge, or even just eat healthy. i seem to be doing it all mechanically. *shrug*

still overindulging upon amphetamines, but not as much as i used to, and if i get really hungry, most of the time i'll grab something to eat, but still there are so many voices in my head telling me that i'm too damn fat. i haven't quite decided whetheri'm fully ready to recover, but i'm kind of biding my time until i can make a decision one way or the other.

i hope you guys are all doing well, and for old times sakes, i'm going to post stats:S

Height: 5'6"
HW: 130ish
LW: 92lbs
CW: 114ish
STG/LTG: don't know.

I was diagnosed with EDNOS in june 2005. my heart is pretty fucked up, and i have lost a ot of bone density from my eating disorder (borderline osteoperitic) but y'know, i don't notice it. i KNOW that my eatingdisorder was doing bad things to me, but that doesn't make it any easier to stop.


take care guys, stay strong. good luck.
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[11 Mar 2006|04:58pm]

[ mood | anxious ]

Get to know you
Name: Clara Faye Chaplin
Age: 17 (18 on may 13)
Height: 5'4.5
What City/Town do you live in: Shit/Beer/Deep River
Current Weight(CW): 115? I'm not allowed to check
BMI: nfc
High Weight(HW): now
Low Weight(LW): 75 (go baby :P :S )
Short Term Goal(STG): 105
Long Term Goal(LTG): death
ED That You Have: Ana, Mia, EDNOS, COE or Not Diagnosed: diognosed with anorexia in jan of '04, then chronic anorexia later that year
Favorite Low-Cal Snack: low fat popcorn with cal free butter, and SALT, diet pop
Thinspiration Quote or Pic: a moment on the lips, forever on the hips
Favorite Pro-Ana Communities: this one, I used to go to a lot but now my parents check the history and there's all this shit so....it's hard

hey guys, I hope you don't mind me barging in like this, if you do, tell me, I'll go. I just need a place where people understand and shit.
My ed started in grade 9 but after huge depression, suicidal, and insomniac problems earlier. In grade 10, Jan 28 2004 I was admitted to CHEO for anorexia, low heart rate, weight of 75 Ib, etc. I stayed in the hosptial for over 8 weeks, then stayed at the Ronald Mcdonald house to attend the EDP for another 14 weeks till I was kicked out (appearantly water loading and taping weights to your legs during weigh-ins is bad...would of thunk it?)

Nov 2004 - three weeks in cheo.

Dec 2004- best friend died due to leukimia and sent my depression swirling bad badbad.

May 2005 - three weeks in cheo then transferred to Homewood mental health in Guelph

June 2005 - homewood for a little over 2 weeks then kicked out (appearantly losing 5 Ib a day is bad)

kicked out of house, attempted suicide, kicked out of friends house, got apartment, patched things with parents, moved back, attempted suicide, lost wieght, gained weight, hated self, did drugs, smoked a lot, cut, went to ottawa where 'friend' proceeded to grope, say shit, grope, grab, etc. cut, cutliedhatedhatedhated

so thats me, in all my ugly fat wasted glory. i recently got my period, something I haven't experienced for over three years....shit i hate me


nice to meet you

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[18 Feb 2006|04:58pm]

I am here today with some thinspiration, perhaps.
for the most part it is for males.
a friend of mineCollapse )

besides that, iv lost a few more pounds, iv just gotta keep up the hard work.
iv only got a few more weeks till NIN and i want to look pretty for then.

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[07 Feb 2006|04:18pm]

AHHHHHH nobody ever fucking writes in here anymore.
Well im going to, iv lost 10pounds since my last update, i still.have to lose 30 more befor i reach my short term goal, my long term goal is to weigh 85 , i dought it will ever happen but, i can always try, iv lost 10 pounds in 2 weeks and i wasent even trying my hardest, this week however, im going all out.
anyways im out
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[24 Nov 2005|03:53am]

ahhh oh my gosh,
i posted the wrong community stats.*feels dumb*
ill do your now.

Get to know you:
Name: joel skye
Age: 17
Height: 5'6
Current Weight(CW): 124
BMI: not to sure
High Weight(HW): 129
Low Weight(LW): 97
Short Term Goal(STG): 100
Long Term Goal(LTG): 75
ED That You Have: Ana and mia (ednos?) whatever.
Favorite Low-Cal Snack: chicken broth.
Thinspiration Quote or Pic: to many.
Favorite Pro-Ana Communities: anawrecksitboys

sosososo sorry :s
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[24 Nov 2005|03:41am]

ello ello,
My name is Joel skye.
stabbedbybetty ♥ refered me here.
location: ottawa when im with my mother
height: 5'6
current weight: 124 (KILL ME)
low weight: 97
been to recovery befor?: yes, i was forced, they made me fat. now im free to be skinny again.
short term goal weight: 100
long term goal weight: 75
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[11 Nov 2005|12:28pm]

okey well iv snapped out of it...no scar on face.
its just a bad idea.
im starting the 28day plan tomorow.
i dont really care today via i cant eat anything anyways (stomach flu = ouchy tummy)
but ya, i just figured that if i fail its better to just try again the to make myself hate myself even more.
like i said just not a good idea.

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[15 Oct 2005|09:19am]

im making myself a new plan.
i have a very attainable goal set for myself (30 pounds in 3 monthes) and if i dont reach it i will punish myself,
my punishment is somthing that for me is terrible.
im going to make a large scar down my face.
now... that is going to suck so it will help me along.
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[19 Sep 2005|07:57pm]
Hi ladies or maybe that's lady since no one posts here. I'm a guy. I'm older than probably everyone else here but it seems mature age on LJ is 21 or something. So I really don't fit in anywhere ... just thought I would say hi. I live in Ottawa like many here ... or some here. COE -- about 25 pounds higher than I would like to be but working on it. I walk incessantly and exercise regularly. I don't have the answers to many of life's mysteries but I do enjoy loud music.
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[15 Sep 2005|08:45am]

lost two pounds, yay
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[06 Sep 2005|05:05pm]

hello, this is an update.
well i have gained....5 pounds.
im a failure.
yes i am.
but i guess it almost a good thing in a way.
when i saw that i gained i realized how much im letting my self go and how much im slipping.
so now i have uber more determination for success.
sombody please update, i feel so alone.
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[26 Jul 2005|02:34pm]

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